What I am thinking about right now.

So I have not blogged for a while and I decided I should start up again because summer has come to a close for I hit the college books tomorrow. I have been just asked for some apricot/orange juice. Gladly I said yes I got to spend my weekend off at my Uncle's birthday party! It was fun. Also I got to spend some time with my Sweetheart Amanda! I love her and I miss her from time to time. What the heck am I saying I do miss her from time to time. She is the one woman I could ask for. Someone who cares someone who says I love you every waking moment they text you or call you. I could always love her saying that to me it means a lot. I have been through some rough times but who cares that's in the past. Funniest thing right now Amanda's yorkie hates cards being shuffled. Her shitsu not the smartest she runs into walls. I have not seen it but I would laugh if I did. Ruthie is not smart. So Amanda and I had a good talk on religion today I had questions and they where answered and it was a really good talk. I hope she didn't feel like I was grilling her. I mean it was a really good talk opened my heart up to a lot of new things. I just got a kiss I cannot tell a lie Amanda's kisses one of a kind. I can't get them any where else but her. I only want her kisses. Reason 1 I love her that's a good reason. Reason 2 I feel like my heart is going to go in to a cardiac arrest when she kisses me. Reason 3 it means she cares. I love her so so much. Amanda Andersen i know you are reading this and you are amazing!!! Amanda i think is going to make me fat. Her food = AWESOME! Why you may ask because it is so brilliant. The taste of her food just that simple. It has been a good Sunday.

I have never felt so grateful to have someone who cares and I know everything is okay when I am with her  it just feels right! I know she wants to read this later we are going to pay our friend Alyssa a visit she deserves it we have a surprise for her and it is amazing. I am so excited this week is going to be good not going to let anything get me down. Again i got a kiss on the cheek there is nothing better. Well that's all that I have to say I think life is great. Of course there will be ups and downs but everyone has had them but off to hang out with Amanda.

It's My Life

It's My Life it's now or never I ain't gonna live forever I just wanna live how I like. These words say all of it. I am just frustrated today that people think I change for someone. I wanna say to them i don't change for any body! I live my life how I want. People say at least I don't change for any body! I am so done with people telling me that obviously they don't know! I am so frustrated that people see me as a different person and they are totally hypocrites. I am so done with people who judge me and people I love I am so so done! If they are reading they know not to deal with me and  so much as even talk about my life and poke their nose in it I am so ANGRY I CAN't COMPREHEND!!!!!! Thank God I have someone to calm me down. I am so sick of it I am not going to tell people about my life! I am sorry I just want to have fun and have something some people have obviously they don't care and can go suck eggs! I don't care if they don't care. I am done talking I will apologize for my actions I am just done talking. I may be a hypocrite some time I need my flaws pointed out but not having any body in my life trying to steer it in a direction!

What to do?

So Yesterday was a really good day.  I got to see the woman of my life, who is an amazing cook. Any who  I have not been able to blog a lot it is just so hectic lately trying to memorize for a show that I am excited for. I also feel I am going somewhere sure my only job is Acting right now but that's what I love to do. I don't get payed much but I love it. I was reading my Twin's blog and I really liked what he was trying to get across, about people shouldn't judge and be rude to other people. I agree full heartedly. I mean how can we say that someone is wrong for being who they are. Example, If someone wants attention, aka an attention whore, Let them be one you don't have to give them attention. They will find it somehow. Always keep an opened mind about it. I have to remember what I was taught in a Theatre Ethics class. People need to love and be loved. I think people are people we must let them be who they are and not try to act like someone else. Just be yourself and you will be loved just the same way.

Jumping for Joy!

Back to my story what to do. I need to start looking for jobs I am quite sick of not having one. frankly I have one  now but I need to find a steady one for college. It will be good. I look always at my significant other and say we have no money. But we always refer a song to ourselves it's called You and I. One of my favorite lines is "Don't you worry there my honey we may not have a lot of money but we have our love to pay the bills." I agree someone will provide for you and you should worry you will be taken care of. Amanda Andersen always sooth my worried looks. Why because she is the best and I always can lean on her and if she is reading she can always lean on me for support.

Amanda and I just past our 10 month anniversary and I can say hot damn. We get excited  about little things. I am telling you she is the one yes we have differences but that's what we love and we are coming up on our first one year anniversary together. It stinks that it is on a Tuesday when school is but we will make it work. I also look at my Dad and how he inspires me. We works 40 to 60 hours a week I always am blown away by that he inspires me to work hard and then play hard. i know this is really scattered but I just feel great. So we say what do we do you know. I mean so many awesome people to thank and to love.

Any who back to yesterday and today so we went to the university to get your U cards ,or as other people would call it student ID's. We where getting so excited for our trax passes and as soon as we got there. Their computers crashed. BLAST PC!  They are never dependable my mission is to turn everyone Apple! I can truly say that. Why you may ask no viruses no having to buy stuff that always fails. I told Amanda to go for an iPhone which is a wise decision. I think it will work a little jealous but I will get to play with it!

I must say this beginning of the week was brilliant and I feel great for the longest time. I feel refreshed and ready to take on something big. I just want to thank everyone for their support and love. Now what to do what to do?

Fantastick!!!

So the show The Fantasticks is a wonderful show and I am really thrilled to be apart of a show! I am really excited to play Matt. It is going to be the jam. I am really excited because it is going to push my limits. I am really excited. Matt is a character that is a quirky Romeo. I am not really that or so I have been told. Any who I am just at Starbucks and trying to memorize I better get back to that and memorize. I am just on my way to do that. I just needed a Break I hope you readers keep following. I'll marry when I marry in my own particular way........ (so on an so forth with the monologue.)