Stressed but loved

This whole week has been hell, where do I even begin? So early last week my brother was admitted to the hospital. I started crewing a show because I got plugged in. Thats not the bad part the bad part is that I had to cancel so many things I had planned. I am starting to get sick I can feel it in the back of  my throat and my nose is runny. I got a parking ticket on thursday and it was not even 2 hours when there was a 2 hour sign posted. I am missing my sister in laws dance concert! I have had to cancel dates!!!!......... The point is that it has been a shit week. I just took a bite of a shit sandwich and i was trudging through the shit and mud. Those two quote belong to my Dad and my Fiancé. I passed out from exhaustion leaving my lady hanging on the phone. Woke up at 5 had a bloody nose. stress, Stress, STRESS!

I am loved I am told that every day and I am also told to look at life differently at some points and laugh it off. I agree I had to laugh several things off which was a good thing or I would have been mad the whole week and miserable. My family and I mean all of my family have been there supporting me. I was in he bathroom thinking what can i do to make it better? I was thinking of several professors and how they went through there training. I could name them off who are inspirations to me. Steven G. Schmid,  Christopher Marvin Will, and Michael Cobb. They all have made me want to become a better student, husband, and father. now of course I am not a father or a husband yet. In five months I will be a husband! Which brings me to my next subject.


Even though life has been stressful I have always had someone by my side saying it is going to work. I sometimes don't take that advice I look at the worst sometimes. I mean being jobless and having everything to worry about scares me a little. My fiancé, bless her soul, is always there for me. I have cried a lot this week because I have been breaking down and asking God himself what can I do? Now haven't got the answer directly but Amanda has always been there saying it will be okay. I am a 20 year old man I have a long way to go. I have a fiancé who loves me and a family to back me up. Even when life gets you down it is hard to pull yourself back down from everything going around you!

been a while!

So it has been quite some time since i blogged so i guess I better start again. I am sitting in my math class and all I can think about is the future that is ahead of me. I hope I get a job, I hope I can support my wife, pay bills, you know all that  fun stuff. I have come to the conclusion that I am a poor fellow. I mean yes I work my tail off at school, I have applied at so many jobs and no one wants me. I finally got an interview. Any who that is not the point the point is that I have more than I need to survive. I can't believe how blessed I really am. I have a car sure it is old and it is a 91 but still it gets me from point A to point B and it is really nice to have that. I have a house a TV a laptop. The point is that I don't need a flat screen would it be nice? Yes it would be but I have also decided in the end I can't eat a flat screen.

One thing I have been missing a lot in my fiancé. I mean I saw her yesterday but it is getting harder, and harder to say goodbye at the end of the night. I hate making that drive home because I am tired I just want to cuddle with my sweetheart. Life is cruel sometimes. Such as morals rules that the human themselves have made. One thing is that means it is going to be sweeter in the long run and it is going to be awesome. Amanda says don't leave. I wish I didn't have to but rules are rules. Only a couple more months until the wedding. I can just see it I am really excited. To call Amanda my wife and it is going to be awesome. I feel like I have everything I need. Now all I want is a job. I got an interview from a dairy farm called Winder Dairy I hope I get it It would be sweet if I did. Hell I would even take a milk man job as long as it pays the bills.


Life is good. Challenges come up then stress hits but at the end of the day we know or at least I should know that everything is going to be okay.