HELL WEEK!

So as we all know as a student of theatre we are looking forward to opening a show. Before that comes we have the week called tech week or more known as hell week. It is exciting but at the same time nerve racking. Lately I have been enjoying my self in the current production I am in. I am in the ensemble but I am in a lot of numbers so many people think that the rehearsal process is boring. I think that if thats the way you feel their is the door. Their is not much to say in this blog today just life is good one show and school is great I finally am de stressed.

WOOF!

WOOF! thats all I can say. I am so beat. I never knew how hard I worked my body until today. I was just doing you know the usual. Three dance classes and a singing for the actor class. Start off my day in modern dance it was fun we had a guest choreographer. Then we had tap and I nailed the double time step it is fun I think it it is quite easier than the single time step. Then singing for the actor comes along. I walk into class and find myself handing in my work that was do. My professor said "Taylor you are up." I had my concept I had my images but was I wrong for thinking I did somewhat well. My professor brought out the actor finally in me. I let myself go. I had the chance to sing Tell My Father from The Civil War. When my professor came up to me and workshopped i felt like i was in the moment. I finally am getting it down free education you can't beat that. Jazz class comes around I am so tired emotionally so I pick myself up. On to jazz class not knowing we where going to fil ourselves today for part of our midterm. I was feeling good then went to work yadda yadda. Rehearsal comes along and I am fine I had a red bull to wake me up. Big mistake on my part I just crashed and then I went and did a homework assignment that was totally hard. Thanks to Amanda I got it done she is brilliant I must say. Amanda got herself in another dance I am happy. I mean performers in the Theatre/ Dance industry we are pretty busy it is fun.

So after my afternoon went to dinner oh how i miss homemade meals oh well. Went to rehearsal it was so much fun I am really excited for the Dirty Rotten Scoundrels to Open up. You all should come see it if you want. I think it is really funny and a good show. After rehearsal went home and I was just exhausted I was coming down hard, but wait there was still one more thing to do. Yes homework! I finally had to sit down and finish it. As i stated earlier I did with some help. Woof! that is a exhale of relaxation and trying to pull myself together. Listening to some John Mayer and Gavin Creel. It is awesome. Life is good. I realize how important people are in your life. This is what happens when you have a great director and a cast who is there to support you all. I miss home I always will because it is home. So I am tired and all I can do is relax close my eyes and go to sleep  which I am going to do! Finally relaxation. WOOF!

Back to College We Go

Have you ever thought at ease for a while. After driving three hours back to college I feel like comfortable and uncomfortable at the same time. I had a wonderful spring break. Now I am back in reality where college will take over once again. I had some lovely opportunities to set up some head shots. I have also had the opportunity to audition for the University of Utah's ATP (Actors Training Program). I am really happy that I made it into the program all I am just waiting for is the University itself. I have straight A's coming into the semester and my midterms are great i was pretty impressed with myself. I am not a person who is goo with math or science. I am a person who loves literature, history, and the Arts itself. I push myself to get good grades. My biggest inspiration is my Uncle who is a teacher now he taught me a lot as a private tutor to read and write.

All i can say to this one life is good and Easter is around the corner yes I will be heading back to Salt Lake. I am quite excited. I love the city it makes me feel comfortable. I love the environment and just the urban setting. I love to go down town go to local coffee shops and work on my laptop and just relax and talk to various people. I can't have coffee do to the season of Lent I gave up coffee and it is hard because it is my pickup in the morning, but hey i can still have tea that is a given but not the same it has only been two weeks I feel like I am dying. I will succeed. Well life is good and brilliant. Remember life is what you make it not when you look at the bad in life. 

Caring

New Head Shot 2011

So I have always been told to care for someone in life. I have always thought that statement was really true. So Spring Break has come at last. I lately have been really busy auditioning for University's. Thats not what I am here to talk about though, although I got accepted and am really excited to go through the program and eager for school to be over still there is something on my mind. I have recently encountered some old good friends of mine one in particular, I won't name names. I have just discovered that caring for someone can make a difference in your life and in your friends lives. I have neer sat down with this person nor have I listened empathically to them. I always thought that it was not a big deal until i saw pain and sorrow in their eyes. I had sympathy also I was empathic for them as well. Someone to hold on too someone just to let them know you are their for them. Friends who watch out for each other. My Spring Break has been pretty busy being with loved ones. Caring for you friends can mean the world to them, at least that's what I was told. I have been hurt in my life and sometimes it comes around and kicks my butt. Lets face it scars take a while to heal.

The person I talked to today is so dear to me I would do anything. I have seen them multiple times and I have been just watching as I see pain go through them and myself. Is it jealousy? Is it hate? Or is it confusion? We never wil know unless we decide and figure it out for ourselves. Caring, One of my best friends talked to me for a good hour today saying positive things to me and then we talked for hours. I took this discussion to heart because some people like to look at the bad in people. I myself try not to look at the bad in someone. That is of course if they don't deserve it. I was told all my life how can you love someone if you can't love yourself. This is a very powerful statement in it's own words. You can't their is no way if you do not love yourself pain and sorrow will be brought upon the ones you love and the people who care and love you. Why would you belittle someone because they can't get a move right in a dance class or does not get a problem in math? Because people now a days want power and want to be feared, or lets say in this case noticed. Some people get hurt by this it does more internal damage than physical. I would rather sometimes have physical pain than emotional pain. You can make it all work out we have to think with logic and actually use our brains. I don't mean to stand on my soap box but caring for other people and not belittling them will get you no where in life quite frankly it makes you look like a completely ass hole. (I apologize for the language.) I believe that if you have the guts and heart to care for someone life and it's good graces will bless you from The Big Man Above! Once again take into heart don't hurt any body if you do it on accident figure it out and apologize. If you hurt someone purposely bad karma will come to you.