We have, what we have.

So I am sitting across the table from my twin brother. He and I where just talking it got me thinking. I mean I have a great family a great home I have a lot of things that a lot of other people don't have lets just say we both have laptops and MacBooks and they are the best in the market. We had to work for them, it took time and hard work. I have come to the conclusion that my family is not the most wealthy family. Nor is my family the poorest I mean we live from paycheck to paycheck. Being a college student is tough looking for jobs you can work at looking at housing moving out and everything. I must say I am very grateful for what I have and awesome family awesome girlfriend and enough to make me feel comfortable. My family inspires me also my girlfriend inspires me. We may may not have a lot of of money but we have our love to pay the bills. I must say the few years when I move out may be rough but life will go on and I will always have someone to lean on. That's what is good about my family. I mean my Father inspires me and he is the only one who brings the income into the house. Okay lets put it this way some people may have droids or iPhones. Would they be awesome to have ya of course. Do I need them? The answer is no I mean I have a cell phone that works just fine I mean sure it is just a feature phone with texting and that is okay with me. I get to text people who I want and call for free well on weekends and people with Verizon. It's tough I mean we are low on food but we are not starving there is always something that we can make. We have what we have so i must be grateful for it I am. I have a roof over my head and a warm meal and a shower and a family. I can ask that on any given day. I love it I love what I have it is the best and all I could ever ask for. This is a shorter blog but I feel it needed to be said.

hmmmm?

So I am sitting in my room here with coffee and a muffin, a home made muffin that is. I think that home is a good place to live. I wake up in my den and it is a wonderful feeling to know that I have a home. I have come to a conclusion to who I am. You know when you are trying to figure yourself out in Jr. High or Highschool? I finally figured it out in college. Maybe my Highschool theatre teacher was right. wait to do stuff in college and in Highschool just follow suit. It worked and my Dad said don't go looking fo anything let it come to you. That's exactly what happened. I found my self out I was really thrilled! The fact of that is I have really good friends and I love them to death. I have friends from high school college and yet still jr.high. Friends are always there for you. I must say it are the ones who really do care for you! I will list an example Trevor Blair, he has been my friend since jr high granted he is a year younger but who cares he is the bees knees. That kid will go far. He is always there to lend a hand or a shoulder to cry upon. We have been busy lately. I wish I could see him and have a guys night with him and just talk. He always listens and gets where I am coming from. I am very thankful that he is a part of my life.

So yesterday I was just sitting to myself thinking hey I need to be memorized. I am so close the music is coming along and lines are a little harder for me but I am going to get there eventually. I must say I want it to overcast where I live. I was really excited to get a week of overcast and not have the sun come burn my skin. But hey it still says that there will be overcast. I love having overcast it is the best. Why because it calms me down and I enjoy it. It sort of reminds me o London always foggy and rainy. Over cast is like my peace and zen so is rain and occasionally snow. However the snow has to be in the following months November -January after then it needs to stop. I know I am being random but this what you get to know about me is random facts.

Opera who knew it was another thing I would like in the performing arts. It makes me happy. I get to see people use their voice as their instrument and I always thought that i was weird. I finally got the concept that they where trying to tell stories. I was flabbergasted by it. Opera hmmm, one of my favorite ones is The Barber of Seville by Rossini. I also like the Magic Flute. It has amazing music and a story behind it. So many things you can get out of one of the older forms of the performing arts. I always have top remember myself even though times are rough you can always get through them with friends and family or even better friends and family who enjoy the performing arts with you!

Somebody to love

So right now I am sitting on the couch with my lady right beside me. I must tell you guys this. I have never been so blessed with someone like this. She makes me feel like no one else. Why you may ask I mean she makes me just really happy. Someone to lift your head up when your down or to sooth your worried looks. I mean I can really say I have something special and I will never let it go. I can say my lady has many quirks of hers which makes me really happy. I love her so so much. I got to spent the week with her and then I also get to spend 4th of July with her which makes me really happy. There is nothing better than just relaxing with her.

Today started out a little rough for me as we all know I am diagnosed with severe depression so I have to take medication, well I am suppose to. Any who that's not the point. I was really anxious this morning you know when people are really loud and they give you that vibe that they arre really loud and I just feel that people sometimes need to take a chill pill. Amanda came up to me and asked if I was okay I said ya I am fine I am just anxious. I was honest and yet I feel i always need to be honest with myself. She said it will be fine. I usually don't like to be held when I am on edge or anxious, but her huge none the less was just what I needed. Obviously I had to take medication for my anxiety. It helped but I think the cure of someone being there saying it's alright everything will be fine was a lot more better then popping a pill into my mouth. It's all in your head and mind games. Look at it they say your brain is something that needs to fix chemicals and what not. If i where to put us in a movie i would say the Family Man. The reason why it's our life in a nutshell. She makes me really happy I love her I wouldn't change anything about her.

So I am currently in the Fantasticks and I am playing the romantic lead Matt. I am a little nervous do to the fact that i have to be memorized before the first rehearsal. It gives me good character. I will be memorized. I am a little nervous because I got an interview with apple, thats right the Mac store. I was really excited. I also am In the actors training program at the University of Utah. I am just a little nervous that they will conflict with it and I am hoping it will be all good and work out. It would totally work out. I am very excited for this next school year to come. I am also a little intimidated but all will be good. So many things. Sooner or later I will get used to the flow and I will get used to everything I need to do. How does this all tie into my title somebody to love? Well I do have somebody to love and she is the best any guy can ask for!