Somebody to love

So right now I am sitting on the couch with my lady right beside me. I must tell you guys this. I have never been so blessed with someone like this. She makes me feel like no one else. Why you may ask I mean she makes me just really happy. Someone to lift your head up when your down or to sooth your worried looks. I mean I can really say I have something special and I will never let it go. I can say my lady has many quirks of hers which makes me really happy. I love her so so much. I got to spent the week with her and then I also get to spend 4th of July with her which makes me really happy. There is nothing better than just relaxing with her.

Today started out a little rough for me as we all know I am diagnosed with severe depression so I have to take medication, well I am suppose to. Any who that's not the point. I was really anxious this morning you know when people are really loud and they give you that vibe that they arre really loud and I just feel that people sometimes need to take a chill pill. Amanda came up to me and asked if I was okay I said ya I am fine I am just anxious. I was honest and yet I feel i always need to be honest with myself. She said it will be fine. I usually don't like to be held when I am on edge or anxious, but her huge none the less was just what I needed. Obviously I had to take medication for my anxiety. It helped but I think the cure of someone being there saying it's alright everything will be fine was a lot more better then popping a pill into my mouth. It's all in your head and mind games. Look at it they say your brain is something that needs to fix chemicals and what not. If i where to put us in a movie i would say the Family Man. The reason why it's our life in a nutshell. She makes me really happy I love her I wouldn't change anything about her.

So I am currently in the Fantasticks and I am playing the romantic lead Matt. I am a little nervous do to the fact that i have to be memorized before the first rehearsal. It gives me good character. I will be memorized. I am a little nervous because I got an interview with apple, thats right the Mac store. I was really excited. I also am In the actors training program at the University of Utah. I am just a little nervous that they will conflict with it and I am hoping it will be all good and work out. It would totally work out. I am very excited for this next school year to come. I am also a little intimidated but all will be good. So many things. Sooner or later I will get used to the flow and I will get used to everything I need to do. How does this all tie into my title somebody to love? Well I do have somebody to love and she is the best any guy can ask for!