Someone to lean on!/ The True Meaning

So this week let's face it not the best week for Taylor. I had some doubts about myself this past week but I feel that it is all taken care of. My fiancé has been really worried about me. I thank her for that it means she cares and I feel that amazing fuzzy feeling inside. I am just blessed to have her in my life. So I have been busy as hell though this past week it has been crazy. Christmas is the busiest time of the years for me so much to do in so little time. I feel that everything I have been getting done is getting done. I am thrilled that is is done. I just have a couple fore things to do then I will be completely done and I will figure everything out. The new year is going to be great. I am getting married I am really excited. I am thrilled and lucky to have such a beautiful woman such as Amanda and that I will be married into an amazing family and yet Amanda gets to be a part of my awesome family which i love so dearly. Life is short but at the same time it seems long and it is indeed hard at some points. I can honestly say my fiancé has saved my life once or twice. She is an amazing woman and I can never ever thank her enough for all the things she has done for me. She is perfect in my eyes. I hope I can be perfect for her. I love a line from one o our favorite musicals "Next to Normal" and the line goes like this. "I can;t fix whats fucked up, but one thing I know I can do. I can be perfect for you." I am dammit. She is amazing and she deserves the world and anything she wants. I am not trying to sound like a praise session but it is. Amanda Andersen (Smith) deserves it.

So this what have I done? Oh yeah shopping delivering candy going to Christmas parties. I feel that is a necessary for christmas I was recently reading an article for christmas in the 1800's. I thought it was cool. I feel that is a lot more meaningful as it is now a days. I feel that I am going to make it a tradition and it is going to be really fun. When Amanda and I have kids we are going to do it our own way and have a lot to do for the holiday's I feel that is going to be really fun. I can't wait to start a family. It is going to be amazing. I may not get a lot this christmas but I am going to have the most important thing for Christmas and that is a family that loves and supports me. I have been inspired by so many people in my life from my own family to friends to people that I love or famous actors or professors. I feel that it is a joy to be surrounded by them.


So tonight Amanda is going to come over tonight and it is going to be really exciting do to the fact that we are opening our first Christmas presents together this year. I am really excited. I have to remember what the true meaning of Christmas is. It is the time where Christ our Savior is born. Now you who may be reading may not be of the Christian faith. Let's say you may be Jewish happy 3rd day of Hanukkah. I feel that people who believe what hey believe is incredible and when they stick to it also blows me away. Christmas eve is coming and I am really excited. I veto to have Christmas Eve dinner and Christmas dinner with family I love and I am so excited and happy. So if I don't blog until after Christmas, a Merry Christmas and a Happy Holidays!