Holy Hell

So it has been forever since I have blogged. I have recently been doing my first professional show the Fantasticks. It was a ball i loved it. Lately I have been going to school. I have not been able to go do to the fact I had hernia surgery and my goodness it is harder and more painful than I thought. I can barely move my waist and it sucks. I am limited to what I can do. I was a little bummed this week to find out I did not make A Christmas Carol. Who cares not me I am just going to take a break. I need it. I want to spend time with my girlfriend. I want to get married there I said it can you believe it I want to get married. Who knew if you know me well I was the kid who said I want a career and then get married. Well that fell down like a load of bricks. I can't wait to actually get married I get to see the woman I love every day. Okay it may not be all day. I will at least get to see her in the morning and then at night. I can't have that. I have been depressed lately but there is always someone for me and always someone who is there to pick me up like my twin or his fiancé. Also there are my brothers my parents and at last but not least my girlfriend. I love people  who actually care. I have been tired and so busy. I have been thinking I need a break from shows and just be with family and pay attention to people in my life. I love work but my goodness it can get tiring.

I told you recently I had surgery and I am really sore I have never thought that an inguinal hernia would be painful. I have never been bruised in certain places before. Hurts to sit down get up and sometimes walk. This was my first surgery ever. So i was a little nervous going in and I was like oh lord what do I do. I can't remember being knocked out. All I can remember was waking up. Being sore I have to say my Surgeon was the best. He called today to ask if I was okay. I am sore he gives me info on all the things that I need. So! I need a damn  break I will show you a pic of where they went it but I am all good just stiff and sore.


I need to focus on school. I miss my woman. I miss my family. I just need a break holy hell do I need one and I just want to relax and get better. Hell hopefully I will be better by Monday so I can return to school.