Wedding Scouting

So last night was relaxing I got the opportunity to come and relax at home with the family. Which is great. Home is home! So I played some video games read and I was just resting after getting daily chores done. Any who that is not the reason I am talking on today's subject! Today we are going scouting for a venue for mine and Amanda's wedding. I feel like this is a great opportunity to go with. I am really excited! I don't know about anyone else. We have a ground plan for our wedding. It going to be elegant or so I am told. Which is really exciting. I have my groomsmen and she has her bridesmaids. I am nervous do to the fact I am becoming a husband and in the future a father. I wrote in my journal last night, I will share some points I wanted to get out of life.

1. I want to be a Loving Husband 
2. I want to be a Loving Father
3. I want to support my family 
4. I want to be a better person
5. I will always love my family no matter how big or small.

That is just a few things I jotted down last night. One thing I said is to be a better person. Not for any body else but for my own sake. I mean I cannot judge myself I hate floating my own boat and boasting. I am a lucky man. I can really say that I want to be a stupendous Husband and Father. Amanda and I are not planning to have kids for a while yes I have to put my foot down on that. Amanda if you are reading this know that I love you! Any who off that subject. I feel that I am really young. My original plan was not to get married until after I got my Masters degree. Yeah right that feel like a ton of bricks. Then I decided to wait and get married after my Bachelors degree. Yeah right that feel like a sack of potatoes as well. I feel in love I may be poor and we may struggle. Hell we may have to scrounge for gas money in our ashtrays or piggy banks. We love each other we are happy and we are satisfied.

Amanda on the phone last night said "Taylor it is actually happening!" I said, "Are you excited?" She replied, "YES!" That was my cue to say me too. I am really ecstatic and completely and utterly speechless. Marrying the love of my life. Having my family there with me and making the family even more bigger than ever. I will have 3 sister-in-laws and one brother-in-law. I almost forgot my Father and Mother in-laws. They have been gracious and kind and loving to me and my family. I am proud to say my Mother-in-law is going to have 5 son-in-laws. It is exciting my own Mother gets another girl in the family. She is thrilled and joyful. I have never seen my mother happy. My Father on the other hand is a softy. My Dad is a gentleman teaching us how to respect women and children and raising us properly. Basically teaching us the way of life. I can say once he has a granddaughter he will be wrapped around her little finger. Life is exciting. I thank God and Jesus my Savior for giving me such a great opportunity to find the woman of my life.



Again wedding scouting? Venue searching? What does this mean? It means I get to start my own family. Be with the one I love for the rest of my life. Have a bigger family. Go to amazing family reunions and have Christmas and Holidays with a lot of families. I am so blessed. I don't need to be rich. I don't need to be wealthy. Yes I want to be comfortable in my own way and not struggle. There will be time we struggle and there will be times we have to give up some things that we want to keep. Life is what you make it. We have all heard that saying before. I honestly think if we look in the bright side of life and let God take the reigns everything will be just fine. I love my family and I love my Savior. I am so blessed

Great Week!

So this is going to be a shorter blog this week just do to the fact I am exhausted. So Christmas was great I got  kindle and clothes what more could I ask for. The most important thing is that I was with my family and it was really special and great for me. I had the most amazing time with my fiancé and it was really fun. I love being around my family. I am extremely tired well I am going to spend time with the fiancé ps I hate being picked!!!!

Someone to lean on!/ The True Meaning

So this week let's face it not the best week for Taylor. I had some doubts about myself this past week but I feel that it is all taken care of. My fiancé has been really worried about me. I thank her for that it means she cares and I feel that amazing fuzzy feeling inside. I am just blessed to have her in my life. So I have been busy as hell though this past week it has been crazy. Christmas is the busiest time of the years for me so much to do in so little time. I feel that everything I have been getting done is getting done. I am thrilled that is is done. I just have a couple fore things to do then I will be completely done and I will figure everything out. The new year is going to be great. I am getting married I am really excited. I am thrilled and lucky to have such a beautiful woman such as Amanda and that I will be married into an amazing family and yet Amanda gets to be a part of my awesome family which i love so dearly. Life is short but at the same time it seems long and it is indeed hard at some points. I can honestly say my fiancé has saved my life once or twice. She is an amazing woman and I can never ever thank her enough for all the things she has done for me. She is perfect in my eyes. I hope I can be perfect for her. I love a line from one o our favorite musicals "Next to Normal" and the line goes like this. "I can;t fix whats fucked up, but one thing I know I can do. I can be perfect for you." I am dammit. She is amazing and she deserves the world and anything she wants. I am not trying to sound like a praise session but it is. Amanda Andersen (Smith) deserves it.

So this what have I done? Oh yeah shopping delivering candy going to Christmas parties. I feel that is a necessary for christmas I was recently reading an article for christmas in the 1800's. I thought it was cool. I feel that is a lot more meaningful as it is now a days. I feel that I am going to make it a tradition and it is going to be really fun. When Amanda and I have kids we are going to do it our own way and have a lot to do for the holiday's I feel that is going to be really fun. I can't wait to start a family. It is going to be amazing. I may not get a lot this christmas but I am going to have the most important thing for Christmas and that is a family that loves and supports me. I have been inspired by so many people in my life from my own family to friends to people that I love or famous actors or professors. I feel that it is a joy to be surrounded by them.


So tonight Amanda is going to come over tonight and it is going to be really exciting do to the fact that we are opening our first Christmas presents together this year. I am really excited. I have to remember what the true meaning of Christmas is. It is the time where Christ our Savior is born. Now you who may be reading may not be of the Christian faith. Let's say you may be Jewish happy 3rd day of Hanukkah. I feel that people who believe what hey believe is incredible and when they stick to it also blows me away. Christmas eve is coming and I am really excited. I veto to have Christmas Eve dinner and Christmas dinner with family I love and I am so excited and happy. So if I don't blog until after Christmas, a Merry Christmas and a Happy Holidays!

Sunday Christmas Parties!

So this week has been a little tough. Mom has been admitted into the hospital. I feel that it is sad but she will get better. I am finished with Christmas shopping and it is a good feeling. I wrapped them too and it is good to know that it is done. I have some presents to wrap but at the same time I am anxiously waiting for Christmas! I want it to snow. I have been waiting all of the end of November and all the month of December all I want is it to snow for Christmas and it would be awesome! Any way I can't wait to go to a christmas party tonight with my fiancé and it is going to be fun. Planet play, heck yes! Everything is free and laser tag is extended which is really good to hear we are going to have a lot of fun.

What am I doing?

I am excited for christmas and I am just thankful for everything I have and the people that surround me in my life. I am really excited. I am sitting next to my future brother in law watching football. I am wondering who my team is. I realize that I am going to be living in Kansas for a while for a part of my life and it is exciting. So I am rooting for the Kansas City Chiefs!  They won an undefeated team the Green Bay Packers, sweet. I am happy that my family loves football.

So I realize when I am married I have to start off with a slate and I am not going to have the best of things such as an iPhone and a fancy car or a fancy flat screen. I will have a wife that I love and family I am really excited! I will be giving my life to someone for the rest of my life and for all eternity. So your probably wondering what does this have to do with  Sunday Christmas parties. Well the fact I am going to be with friends and I am going to be with family and people that I love!

Can't Sleep

So I can't sleep so I am watching Disney's A Christmas Carol. I love this movie. It is my favorite christmas movie. It also has one of my favorite actors. Jim Carrey. I am so inspires by his work because he can do it all. I am watching how it was made. How the actors used mo cap technology. I also feel that today was a good and bad day. You know when you all of a sudden get a bit of bad news and it stinks? Well life goes on and I guess i can't fix it myself.

On to a new subject. I have a job interview finally it took forever to get one 10 applications later. I am thrilled. I was telling my fiancé how i want it to all be okay in our life when we are married she said it will all be okay and life is not all about money. I felt like Ebenezer Scrooge himself. I also looked at my goals and the future and it looks pretty good. I am really excited for what is in store. I love my lady she gets it and is so amazing. I feel bad do to the fact she does not feel very good. I was over there to take care of her. She is strong and a lovely woman. I love her very much. Well I will try to get to sleep now. Until next time.

Finals and Sick Days

So I am currently just snuggling with my fiancé. She is not feeling so hot. I think it is just a common cold. I felt so bad for her this morning. So I went over to her house to see if she was alright. I wasn't feeling my chipper self as well. I could tell Amanda was not feeling well all she wanted was me there by her side. I know for a fact when she wants me there, I'll be there. I love Amanda with all my heart and I can honestly say that I am happy to say that when we are married we will be writing a blog for the both of us. I am so happy that I get to marry her and that we are going to start our own family. What can we say we are sickies and we are not feeling hot thats why we are taking it easy and making sure we are rested. I finally get to sleep in some mornings and I thought it was wonderful and I enjoyed every minute of it! I felt refreshed ready to take on the day. I came in I saw Amanda laying on the floor. Why you may ask I have no idea. I felt so bad she was cold so I said get on the couch and I threw another blanket over and held and cuddled her. It is nice to have the one you love with you while you are not feeling so hot. I made dinner and helped clean up a little not much but i decided to take care of my sweetheart.

So finals are coming up my final two. I had my acting final which was really great. I felt that I was so happy with what we did and I am happy to say I am in the ATP. I was told  the program was 8th in the nation. I couldn't believe it. Well i guess thats what you get for going into a conservatory program. I thought it was really cool. My next two finals are costume design for a scenography class and my political science final. both are really tough but I am willing o take the challenge. I am a little nervous I have been studying two hours a day. The maximum this week will be pushing 4 hours. I feel I will be prepared I have someone to study with me and drink eggnog and I feel that since it's the holiday season that I am more relaxed. Over the week I got my Christmas shopping done. I know what I got people and I hope they are happy with the presents I got them! I am excited! So this week is going to be busy but worth it.

Engaged!

So over Thanksgiving break about a week ago the best thing of my life happened. I got to propose to the love of my life Amanda! It has been a year and it was so exciting. We went to the Fresno Monster hockey game and it was really fun. I took right down to center ice and I proposed right in front of everyone. She thought we where going down to play deal or no deal and we did but the ring was in case 2. It was really fun to see her reaction. I was really happy and her reaction was priceless. After the proposal everyone we saw in the hall or the seats around us said congrats to us. It was quite awesome. The crowd was going nuts and they where all excited. I loved being in Fresno California for Thanksgiving it was way fun. I needed the vacation. It was 60 to 70 degrees. T shirt and shorts weather. It was nice and relaxing. Amanda needed the break too she was finally at peace and relaxed with me and her wonderful family. We have set a date for the wedding June 30th. My parents and her parents are really excited. I met Amanda's Mom's side of the family. They where all down to earth and it was really awesome. I had a great time in Fresno.

Yesterday we had a fun day. We put a a hold on our apartment. We also went furniture shopping. we got a mirror that we really loved and also looked at couches and a bed set. I felt like it was actually happening. Getting ready to start a family getting ready to be united as one. My Dad said to me "The hardest thing is two people becoming one." It made me think. Amanda and I have some decisions to make that are going to be hard and yet it is what we want. I love Amanda with all my heart and she hears me out. Unless I am being ridiculous. I cannot wait to start my own family. I see great families such as My Dad and Mom being great parents. Also Amanda's parents. I love to see the love and support they give each other. Family is where it all start.