Stressed but loved

This whole week has been hell, where do I even begin? So early last week my brother was admitted to the hospital. I started crewing a show because I got plugged in. Thats not the bad part the bad part is that I had to cancel so many things I had planned. I am starting to get sick I can feel it in the back of  my throat and my nose is runny. I got a parking ticket on thursday and it was not even 2 hours when there was a 2 hour sign posted. I am missing my sister in laws dance concert! I have had to cancel dates!!!!......... The point is that it has been a shit week. I just took a bite of a shit sandwich and i was trudging through the shit and mud. Those two quote belong to my Dad and my Fiancé. I passed out from exhaustion leaving my lady hanging on the phone. Woke up at 5 had a bloody nose. stress, Stress, STRESS!

I am loved I am told that every day and I am also told to look at life differently at some points and laugh it off. I agree I had to laugh several things off which was a good thing or I would have been mad the whole week and miserable. My family and I mean all of my family have been there supporting me. I was in he bathroom thinking what can i do to make it better? I was thinking of several professors and how they went through there training. I could name them off who are inspirations to me. Steven G. Schmid,  Christopher Marvin Will, and Michael Cobb. They all have made me want to become a better student, husband, and father. now of course I am not a father or a husband yet. In five months I will be a husband! Which brings me to my next subject.


Even though life has been stressful I have always had someone by my side saying it is going to work. I sometimes don't take that advice I look at the worst sometimes. I mean being jobless and having everything to worry about scares me a little. My fiancé, bless her soul, is always there for me. I have cried a lot this week because I have been breaking down and asking God himself what can I do? Now haven't got the answer directly but Amanda has always been there saying it will be okay. I am a 20 year old man I have a long way to go. I have a fiancé who loves me and a family to back me up. Even when life gets you down it is hard to pull yourself back down from everything going around you!